Wow, while this made me very sad to hear, I felt much empathy for what Nicole has went through with Bulimia, and I'm happy that she was able to work through this crippling addiction. She revealed her struggle in an interview with Cosmo UK.
At the height of her fame with the Pussy Cat Dolls, it would have seemed that Nicole had it all. The truth was very different. No one knew, not even her close friends and family, that the "paralyzing" struggle that is bulimia (or any eating disorder) was ruling her life. Here are some excerpts from the interview:
"[Opening up about bulimia] was hard for me to speak about.. It still is hard, and thinking about it I try not to well up. It is such a horrible paralyzing disease and it was such a dark time for me.. That's why I can empathize so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren't nice to themselves. It robs you of living your life. But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever. I did it and that's why it's so important for me to share my story. I felt so alone...but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it—do not give up because you're so special and you're meant for such great things."
"I had started losing my voice, I couldn't sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France.. I thought, ‘I'm going to lose everything I love if I don't love myself.' One day when you feel like you've reached the end, you just say, ‘I'm not doing this anymore.' It's sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I'm never letting that happen again; you only get one life—I was 27 only once."
I'm happy to hear that Nicole reached a point where she got help and was able to cope with it and had the strength and courage to share her private struggle. When people reveal struggles, it makes me relate more. I'm sure there are young women out there that will benefit from hearing this. And overall, it shows us again that we can't compare our insides (how we feel) to someone else's outside's.. because ias this case shows us, things are not always what they seem. Everyone is struggling with something!
Erica America is a Radio Personality, Television Host and licensed Psychotherapist, LMHC. She can be seen & heard weekly on The World Famous Z100, Nick Radio and 'Dr. Drew On Call' on HLNTV.
Beginning her broadcast career on MTV in 2001 in their VJ competition, Erica later founded celebrity interview website iamericamag.com in 2005, known for unique and edgy video interviews with emerging artists. She hosted videos for Heeb Magazine, was Spin Magazine's Warped Tour Reporter in 2006 and has written for Yellow Rat Bastard Magazine. She has appeared on multiple television shows including Showbiz Tonight, The Dr. Drew Show, Fuse TV (Absolute POP, Trending 10, The F List), and appeared on Sirius Satellite Radio's Howard 101.
Erica graduated from The George Washington University in 2004 with a Bachelor of Science in Business and Communication. She went on to receive a Master of Arts in Mental Health Counseling from Brooklyn College and later received her license in Mental Health Counseling. Using both her background in psychology and her intense enthusiasm for everything "pop culture", Erica fuses entertainment and analytic insight as a dynamic television and radio personality.